look

if you didnt see me

with your own two eyes

how could you know

what happened

and what didnt?

temper (v.)

i am easily intimidated
quickly defensive
and easily hurt

please do not attack.

keep on

do i have to know what im looking for

in order to find it?

or would i be able to realize it

once i see  it?

sick

sick of understanding
sick of sympathizing
sick of empathizing

sick of living?
No.
sick of living like this.

sleep for a year or two. or two thousand.

i felt like that at one point.
i just wanted to sleep as long as possible,
until the whole nightmare was over.
but i wasnt allowed to, so i plowed on.

its been more than 3 years now.
most days i cannot even remember why
i was so sad and depressed back then.
it gets better with time.
maybe so slowly that youd
rather rip your heart out than wait.
maybe with so much time that you
would do anything to make the seconds
feel like seconds instead of years.
but it does get better.

im proof.